Saturday, March 1, 2008

right,so it's the 1st of march.

let's talk about yesterday.

ARS early in the morning.assembly.then..english.heh Mr Poh's always full of stories.not bad,can keep us awake.but ghost stories,ayeeee.haha the other one better,i think.XD MTL,and.search to watch clips of 881.i want to watch the whole movie,hur.haha.

SS.LOL THINGS START COMING OUT AH.recess was hilarious.coughcough.

maths was...ah.had to sit in front coz i didnt do the worksheet,partly because of the fact that i cant grasp the concept.ah but nevermind,sitting in front of the board,not bad eh.can concentrate.haha but at the back livelier.XD CI...uh forgot what we did.

lunched opposite with xiuhui blodwen regina geraldine indu.took jumping photos.prices from two different stores differ oh-so-widely.

geog lesson.interesting.haha i didnt know teachers read blogs.as in,i forgot they do.hmm.paid a bit more attention during the lesson and realised i could actually absorb information.


brought back maths file to study,have to or i'm going to die.tempted to bring back geog but too many files.two arch files dont go well together,haha.

sudden temptation to go to the library.didnt go for two months plus,i miss the library.haha fine i miss reading books.i think around here only got regina hong share the same thoughts as me,LOL.XD as usual overshot be two books so had to "shortlist" books,again.this happens every single time i borrow books,urh.

anyway.finished one book already,and i was thinking of getting them to last me the week.-.-

woke up at 9 today.yes i cant go beyond 9.anyway i still cant get back all i lost during the week,hur.still 9's not bad i guess.I'M COUNTING ON THE HOLIDAYS.



started thinking about alot of things(i have a tendency to start drifting off when i start doing maths,any guesses why?XD) it's a bit funny how sometimes,no matter what you do,you're out.like how you always try to think about their feelings,but they never think about yours.how sometimes you look for the person thats hiding behind the mask,then realise the person with the mask is right next to you.when you get cut off,when you get isolated,not physically,but mentally;it's always happening.when you think things are going to stay this way,you realise it's already changing.how small things can seem to lead to bigger stuff.they come in small pieces and slowly chip off whatever it is that you have.

when you try something you've been wanting to try for so damn long,you get overshadowed,but all you ever wanted was comments.they ask you to "come on,give it a go",and yet they then squash you down like this irritating little fly that isnt worth their attention.maybe it's because my expectations are too high.but like what daphne said,"you need to have the passion to do it properly." passion,yes,but there are more to that,isnt there?

people come and go,they put on masks and take them off,they use you when it's to their advantage but throw you aside when they dont need you anymore.it's the case of whether the glass is half full or half empty;you deduce it as half full but turns out,it's half empty.you just feel like emptying everything and starting all over again.

reality isnt what you want it to be.you hope and wish and pray and would do whatever it takes to get what you want,but still it falls short.maybe,you're supposed to work towards your goal.maybe they dont just depend on your luck.but look at all of them out there.did they all just achieve it based on hard work?maybe they were just fated to do it.maybe they had to pull strings or something.maybe they have the qualities that people like me dont have.maybe we share passion,but without the qualities and "qualifications" it doesnt help,does it?maybe some of us have more passion than them.but we cant get things to work our way.it's all just a big maybe.

we see them,we envy them,we want to be like them - yet will we?

i expect alot out of life,and i'm determined to get it.i want everything to be successful - life,work,everything.

maybe i should just continue to live in my fantasises from now on.

I lighted it up at {11:25 AM}